Ow, Ow, Ow!

More on this pain writing discovery process. I was meditating on the scripture, " . . . By whose stripes you are healed." (1 Peter 2:24) and was thinking about why Jesus died on the cross. He died to save us from sin, not from suffering. So how does that work with the previous scripture? It seems there is a misunderstanding that as believers and followers of Jesus we aren't supposed to suffer or deal with pain. The whole "life more abundantly" concept. I just read in Acts 9:16 That Jesus was going to show Paul what he had to SUFFER for Him. Paul had a thorn in his side, was busted up quite a bit and still rejoiced in the Lord. OW! 
Somehow, God is working that in me. I'm so not there yet as I still whine a bit when the pain increases but He's put this higher purpose in me for the pain. In other words; there's a reason for my pain. I'm thinking because it's coming out in my writing, God will use it to minister to others. So there are these characters I create with Him and they suffer at the hands of a human agents directed by the enemy of their souls and they hang on to their faith, their love, their passion for their Creator and Redeemer. They win in the end. They sure suffered but they sure won!
Now, when the pain in my body increases, I think I can say, "It's for you Jesus. You use it to minister healing to others and save lives and I'll take it. I won't ask how long until my healing comes. I'll say bring it on!" I say this with hope and not as some kind of martyr. I'm far from it; but knowing the why of the suffering, helps me handle it a lot better. I hope and pray it helps people out there.

Blogged

Well for a writer it seems that I don't have much to write about। I guess that's why they call it writer's block. I like the play on words though, 'blocked- blocked', heh, heh. No? Okay, silly joke.
So I thought I would try to explain my process। I really don't like to write unless I have something to say and even then I'd rather it be something God has to say which, because I'm human I don't guarantee accuracy.
I have discovered that my writing involves quite a bit of pain। Physically for myself, inside myself spiritually and emotionally and in the stories themselves. There seems to be a lot of violence done to my heroic characters. I've asked myself why and a friend said it's because of the pain I live with। I create scenarios in my stories that bring pain and require healing physically, spiritually, mentally and emotionally and the hero ends up getting all of that। It's something I desire in all of those aspects for myself and for others (and who on earth doesn't need that?)
So it seems to have become my style which seems to also represent God's triumph over anything the Devil can throw at us. It is at the root, hoping against hope. God is the God of hope.

My First Blog. (how creative)

Well this is my first blog site for myself. It took me a while to see what good one would be and then a friend of mine read from a blog she'd created for a friend and 'adopted' daughter who was dying of cancer. www.nicolepigeon.blogspot.com. She said hundreds of people were reading it to keep on her news of this loved one and lives were being transformed. That did it for me. I realized what God wanted me to do. In fact that morning he gave me the title of my blog site. I knew it was a play on words and I hoped it was available. I had to make an adjustment and I might adjust the title again to His writers blog.

Well, obviously by the title, I am a writer. I have been all my life. I used to write morality stories as a kid and I didn't even know God very well back then. But, He knew me. Now, here I am 44 years old and the writing is really taking off. I finished my first novel, RED and entered it in a contest to be published by Tyndale House Publishers. Here's hoping!!!
I'm on my second novel that I want to develop into a TV show. I have a deep heart cry for Hollywood and I know He is calling me down there to show the Father heart of God to the entertainment industry. He will use the gifts He's given me to do it. I only pray that I let Him do all the navigating! Not so easy when one has passion for something!

For right now, this was an intro to me if anyone is interested. I'll probably continue the intro soon. Until then, I'm still building this blog and getting to know how it all works. Thanks for your interest.

Jayna